Trusting Him

For the first time in a while, I'm actually happy. I'm content with my friends and my school work and just everything in general, and I really never thought that I would say lately.

Why the sudden happiness?

I've started to stop worrying and to truly trust Jesus. 

Over the past few weeks, I've been really digging into what it means to seek Jesus in every situation and to trust him and that has made all the difference. 

All my life I've heard "talk to Jesus like he's your best friend," but I've never truly tried it until recently and it changes everything. Every little thing, every big thing, I tell Him and I seek Him in it and my world has changed. There's so much more peace in Him than I could ever find on my own. Even in the bad, I now see good and that's all because I know He is protecting me and looking out for me. 

"Because he loves me," says the Lord, "I will rescue him;

I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name

He will call on me and I will answer him;

I will be with him in trouble,

I will deliver him and honor him.

With long life I will satisfy him

and show him my salvation."

-Psalm 91:14-16, NIV

We are under God's constant care, and He answers us when we call on Him! He will deliver us in every situation and all we have to do is trust him. We have to turn our attention toward our Savior and away from the momentary problems. Worrying will do no good. 

"But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be provided for you. Therefore don’t worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

-Matthew 6:33-34, HCSB

Trust Him. It makes all the difference.

Sick of School

So I'm at home..because of the flu...for the third day.

Super fun, right? 

My fever broke yesterday morning, but just to be safe I stayed home today as well, but that is three days of makeup work I will have to complete on Tuesday. Three days of tests and quizzes and worksheets and reading and notes that will be expected to be made up in a three day time span in addition to keeping up with my regular school work that will be piled on top of that. 

That is a lot of work, and when I found out I was running a fever and was becoming sick, I had a minor panic attack over all of the work I was going to miss (and at at this point I was assuming I'd be back after only being out one day). I thought about all of the lectures I was going to miss and flat out freaked out. Falling behind, especially in classes that you're not very strong in, is never good. I wouldn't wish that on anyone.

But the whole point of this post is not to say that I think we have too much work. I honestly do think majority of the work teachers give us are to help us learn and prepare us best they can for later whenever we may use it (even if that is only on some standardized test at the end of the year).

I didn't feel good on Monday and Tuesday, but missing school with minimal symptoms of any sickness besides a cold was not a good enough reason to miss school and have to have all the makeup work in my opinion. I wasn't willing to stay home and rest and get better because I was going to miss too much at school. 

I was willing to physically suffer so that I could maintain academic excellence. 

If that doesn't say anything about how our education system puts too much pressure on excelling in school, I don't know what will.

xx,

lauren